This 3 week study break passed so much faster than I expected. Im already into the 2nd, coming to 3rd week. And which means, just officially 9 more days to exams! I’m really really concerned about this exam as this is my only chance to pull up my GPA. Although this is only my first semester and I still have one more to go before I graduate, the CM claimed that if you were to apply for Uni next year, you would be using the current semester results instead of the latter one. So I’m really trying my best to score and get as much A’s.

There were times when I really feel like giving up. For all you know, my GPA is neither here nor there. Really effed up. 3.328.

Its like, even if I can get A’s for both of this year’s semester, my GPA will only be pulled up to maximum 3.5. And where can 3.5 get me to?

NOWHERE.

Yup, you heard me correctly. Maybe, just maybe, it might gain me a chance to go to the interview at SMU. If I’m not wrong, SMU’s cut off point is 3.6-3.7. But I think their standards are increasing and it makes it all the more difficult to be qualified (to just get interviewed). And ya, even if I managed to go to the interview, I MIGHT NOT pass the interview! SMU’s known for their stringent criteria for their interview when judges pose questions and everyone have to fight to answer. And what, I’ll be competing with people from JC like Hua Chong/Raffles etc?! Sigh.

Sometimes, I really regretted not going to JC. I believed I would have fare good enough to get into the local Uni. And I strongly believe, it’s not that hard compared to Polytechnic.

Not saying that Polytechnic is hard. It’s actually quite slack you know. Its just that one requires alot of discipline and maintaining your results throughout the 3 years. I slacked during Year 1 and got atrocious results. It’s only then I realised that Year 1 has the highest weightage among the 3 years and that is why no matter how hard I work in Year 2, my GPA increment is so insignificant.

So it’s like, whats the point of studying hard when I cant get into local uni and I’m bound to go private uni’s?

To be honest, I feel quite lost. Really lost. Yes, I can go to overseas to study. But I will never because I dont wish to leave my parents all alone in Singapore. Age is catching up with them and I really wish to spend more time with them and not wanting them to worry about me 24/7 when I’m all alone overseas.

And the last thing I want to do is to go into a private uni. Really. No offense, but it’s just.. my warped perception against them.

Or maybe worse come to worse, I’ll just pick whichever course in NUS/NTU my grade takes me? Then again, it makes no sense. Sigh. See, at a point of no return. If only I studied harder in Year 1 then I wouldnt be at this juncture.

Oh well.. All I know is that I should just try my best. Even if I fail,at least I know Ive tried.

Guess I shall head to bed. It’s almost 6am! Have to get up in 6 hours to finish my subject before I can head out to meet my Boy!

Nights!

It all started this morning when I had a fall! I was on the way to the bus stop when I bumped into my neighbour who was by the roadside trying to get a cab. I stopped, exchanged a few lines, then bid goodbye. Little did I know I was standing one step down the kerb, and the moment I turned around and bid goodbye, I tripped over the kerb and fell on my knees! And 1/4 of my stuff flew out of my bag! (I always have the bad habit of not zipping up my bag)

Gosh. How embarrassing! To add, I was wearing my new Mono Love Mini dress from Mori Vie! And I believe my dress definitely flew up when I tripped and all the people at the bus stop was all looking at me. Ahh. *slaps head*

And of course, when my neighbour asked me if I was okay, the technically right answer would be a Yes. I stood back up, and walked to the bus stop like nothing had happened.When I boarded the bus, the pain of my wound kicked in and goodness! It kept bleeding and all the pus just keep flowing. Gosh, you poeple should have known better that to fall down on roads is the most painful of all! Just a gentle scratch against it would cause the skin to tear. Sigh.

When I reached the mall, I hurried to Guardian to grab a pack of adhesive dressing before rushing to meet Vivien at the train station as we were running late for our Bikram class (and Bikram waits for no people).

Sigh, though its not that of a big deal, but it just totally spoils my day! And today was the day Boyfriend left for 3d2n field camp! Things just always go wrong whenever he’s not around. Always.. :\

Then at Bikram, I couldnt practise those poses in the later part of the set as all the poses requires kneeling! Ah, I sure felt left out in the class as while everyone was concentrating on their poses, there was I sitting now, looking at my wound on my knee and feet and wallowing in self pity. Sighs*

And sheesh, my plaster keep felling out and it was such a distraction to those that were doing their poses.

Later part of the day, me and Vivi headed to Starbucks at Ion to do our revision for exams. Oh well.. People who knows me should already know by now how attached I am to Liat Starbucks. And ever since that flood(s) “drowned” my second home, I have been (trying hard) studying at home since. And needless to say, Im very not used to studying there and I only studied one chapter for the whole evening! That was bad.. Real bad.

Felt that I really need something to perk me up and keep me going on for the whole night. So decided to pop by Famous Amos and grab a bag of cookies home with the thought that chocolate will definitely will cheer me up since its proven that chocolate send endorphins! When I reach the store, I paused, and thought to myself “The cookies here doesnt seem that well received. All the cookies were still filled up to the brim without any signs of sales for the whole (damn) day. Never mind I thought to myself. It shouldn’t be an issue. So I bought 100g.

But! When I got home and ate the cookies, the cookies tasted so awful that I spit it out! It just dont taste like famous amos and it was not crisp at all, kinda hard, taste like some random cookie and it wasnt even baked properly! Imagine raw sugar bits still inside the cookie! Gosh, can you imagine that coming from Famous Amos?

I was really angry and I headed straight to Famous Website and submitted my complaint!! I told them that their quality was a huge disappointment and what ever happened to quality assurance and baking superior cookies?

The store at Ion wasnt the only branch that has problems! The one at Yishun Northpoint had awful cookies too! Just that its still edible, but definitely imcomprable to the standards over at Wisma.

It was then I realised both of this 2 months branches were opened for less than a year. So that simply means the problem lies with the person baking it! I had been buying from Wisma for over 10 years and it still taste as fabulous as ever. The crisp, the fragrance.. All was really good! I feedbacked that they should at least sample their cookies before selling it and train their workers well!

Ah! See, what a bad day I had. Nothing just goes right.

Oh well well well. Bad bad bad bad day!

Then when I came home, there came feedback from Ashley that her colleagues all felt that I looked better in black hair as compared to my current hair colour which made me look brown in photos! Ahh.

What say you?

Black, or light brown?

Oh, did I forget to mention I’m now modelling for my good friend’s online shop “Mori-Vie”?

Check this out. http://mori-vie.com/

Some of the lovely apparels~

Sigh, alright. Shall stop whining! Gonna get back to my books! Sorry for that really long winded post where its just full of complains! If you are reading this, you should know I’m really overwhelmed now as I seldom blog and if I blog, its either I’m in a super good mood, or at the extreme!

Bye! Tomorrow will be a better day! Shall blog about my trip to Batam when I’m in a better mood! Promise! *winks

XOXO

Bye!

Cant blog already cus I need to head for a quick shower and get started on my project asap! I have very anal group members who insists on submitting the project early (god knows for what reasons!) despite the deadline which is on friday!!!! Yes, not like teacher will award us another extra 10 marks for submitting early? =,=?

No choice, one more week and I’ll be over and done with projects. Endure Celine!!!!!!

Till the nxt time, see ya friends! Dont worry bout me. As tough as it can be, I will endure and clear each obstacles one by one.

Like yesterday, I studied from 9-4am for Fund Accounting exam. Woke up at 9, head to school for exam. Had lessons till 3. Then got a last minute job from Desmond, rushed to Dhoby Ghaut to collect my uniform from him. Then rushed down to Canon’s office @ Keppel Bay Tower for casting. Aftermath, had a quick dinner with the girls then head to the East to work!

And if you think my day has ended, it has not! Reach home only around 12am and here am I, doing up my project on the Euro Bailout.
Sheesh, thought that this topic would have alot of stuff to write and sohuld be quite easy. But damn! There’s just too much stuff to write that I don’t know where to start from. And the thing is, we only have a 5 page limit.

Geez. To think I actually posted on Twitter to ask if anybody’s willing to do the writeup for me with the consideration of 50 bucks. How loser am i. But I’m really really bombarded with too much stuff.

Both my last paper and my project presentation is on Friday and there comes a last min Hooch event tomorrow and a shoot at Bedok area on Thursday.

Tell me, how am I suppose to cope!!!!

Not to forget, I’m definitely not that kind of person who does tutorials and constant revision. Therefore, this few days prior to my exam is really the crucial time for me to grasp all the essentials to pass the paper with flyer colours.

Yes, maybe you would have said why not just decline the jobs. But seriously, for the past few months, it has been kinda quiet and i haven’t been getting jobs. Now that the peak period is here, I just couldn’t bear to turn them down.

On a sidenote, my Fund Accounting paper was a total flop today. I was too tired to think and my mind went blank the moment I flipped over the script. So far, the other 3 papers were pretty good. Secured an A for Global Securities. The rest not known yet.

Well, I only could blame myself for doing last minute studying. I had the weekend to study for it, but I didnt. Accounting has always been my strongest subject and I’m able to grasp the concepts in no time. Having thought so, I only studied the entire 4 chapters the day before exam. You may think it’s only 4 chapters. Mind you, it was almost like 99% self study. (I dont listen to lectures nor tutorials).

Yes, at 4am when I concluded my revision, I thought I was pretty confident. But today when I woke up, I just had a bad premonition. My brain was like totally dead. Nothing could go in, yet my brain cells just keep churning and churning, for no apparent reason. I just couldnt calm down and relax.

And ya, i guess i dont have to elaborate further. Total screw.

Lesson learnt?

OVERCONFIDENCE KILLS.

I’m gonna sleep now. And ya, I have to wake up in 4 hours time.

Fml. Period. Nights.

I really really miss you baby!

Remember this picture? Hoho. It was our first month tgt huh. Alright, not really our first month, but rather, our first official date! The day you “popped the question” and “proposed” to me. Hahaha.

I still remember you were late but then came up to the restaurant with a nice lovely rose!

And and and, I still remember you finished all my pudding and left me only with kueh lapis!

But nevermind boyfriend, because I love you and I love you everyday!

Just wanna say these (almost) 7 months have been really enjoyable and I love my everyday with you, be it you are physically here with me or without!

Every weekend is never enough and time spent with you seems to pass so fast so fast. I really hope we can have a long long week together whereby we can just cuddle in bed the whole afternoon, watch big Bang Theory, have our Macdonalds, take our naps.. I really wish we could do this everyday!

But too bad, army have to take this privilege from me and only allows me to see you 3 days a week! 5 months have passed since you went army and to be honest, it has been kinda tough. Especially when you first got enlisted.. I longed for your calls every night, and that was the period whereby I was having my exams and I was really really stressed out. There were so many times whereby I really wished you were here, but you weren’t. But knowing that not that you don’t want, but rather, you couldn’t, I had no choice but to face the fact.

But I guess these whole army shit did made us stronger and pull us closer together right? Like how the adage goes “Absence makes the heart fonder”

That aside, whenever I need someone, you will always be there for me whenever you can! And I’m really grateful for that.

I thank you for coming over to accompany to give me moral support when I was struggling with my emcee script the night before the actual countdown show. Though you didn’t do much except sleep, but you making your way down to Yishun after a long day at work really says something! And it’s enough.

I thank you for being there for me when I called and cried about how sucky my internship was. Thank you for talking to me on the phone for almost an hour. And yes, though you were in camp, but still, you gave me all the time you could.

I thank you for being there when I first ran my own event at IMM. Thank you for being with me the whole day running here n there with me.

Ahh.. I’m being emotional again. Upon writing till here, I’m at the brink of my tears. I don’t know, but I’m just thankful that I have you as my boyfriend and I hope we can have a genuine long lasting relationship. And I really miss you!

I love you Boyfriend. ♥♥♥♥

First day of June and shit happened. I was really affected but I forced myself to drive my anger towards my studies.

Quarreled with boyfriend first time in 7 months?

Ya man, for the very first time and I think this is enough to cause a crack.

I really hope things will go back to the norm soon.

Afterall, i guess nobody understands me better than my Bff. Sighs.

Busy busy busy like a bumble bee.

Having exams this 2 weeks.

Global Securities Operations paper tomorrow and I’m quite confident!

Also, tied up with new model agencies lately and thus, more events!

Have a mountain of debts to clear though.

Credit card, internet, phone, and yoga bills! And all were due since 3 months back?

Tsktsk. But I’m confident I will be able to clear all by this month!

Goal of the month: Go for yoga at least 2 times a week and start going for cycling training classes @ True Fitness!

Alright, shall stop here. Back to studies.

Tata*!

P/S I so wanna have breakfast/brunch at Prive!

]]> http://missceline.wordpress.com/2010/06/02/552/feed/ 0 missceline panasonic lumix blogshop shootout http://missceline.wordpress.com/2010/05/24/my-love-%e2%99%a5/ http://missceline.wordpress.com/2010/05/24/my-love-%e2%99%a5/#comments Sun, 23 May 2010 17:41:42 +0000 missceline http://missceline.wordpress.com/?p=548 ]]> I’m so overwhelmed with thoughts now. Decided to take a break from my research and pen down my thoughts.

Sometimes, I really question the amazing ability how fate allows the opposite of sexes to attract one another and made such a huge change to one another’s life. There are millions of people in the world and God has allowed this two particular ones to meet each other. Call it fate or what, but I really think God had it all arranged. I always believe in the adage “When God closes a door, he opens a window somewhere for you”. And the latter’s always something better.

6 months ago, I met that someone at Wine bar under the introduction of my girlfriend. And I guess, that was the best thing that has happened to me ever. Because ever since that day, my everyday was really a happy one. And I feel really really loved. I never thought I would be able to have someone that nice to be my boyfriend after what happened in my previous relationships. Not that I did anything bad or what, it’s just that I was the one who let go of the relationship and till now, I’m really guilty of hurting them. I believe in karma, and thus, I always wonder how will be my next boyfriend would be.

Throughout this 6 months, I guess I really learnt alot. I learnt that in a relationship, both parties should give and take. Nothing should, or can be taken for granted.

I had a really wonderful weekend with my boy. Albeit it was nothing special, but every single moment spent with him really made me feel so loved and special. He gave me that sense of security I never had before. I know that with him around, there’s nothing I have to fear of. And throughout these 6 months, he really proved it to me that he always puts me above everything else. (oh well, except Jesus. that’s what he claims)

No matter how tired he is, or how busy he is in camp, he will never fail to drop me a message or give me a call. Whenever he has free time, he would use that time to call me. He could have just went to sleep, knowing that army guys are always really tired. But he didnt. He always chose to call me.

No matter how tired he is after his bookout/guard duty, he still willingly accompanies me to go shopping in town. I always spend at least an hour or two at Zara trying clothes but he’s always waiting for me so patiently outside the fitting room, waiting for me to come out and give me his comments. He never once frowned or complained. And I think that’s really sweet of him because I know how some guys hate shopping.

At times when I felt really discouraged, he’s always there to lend a listening ear and encourage me. And I’m really really grateful for that. I could still vividly remember how he encouraged me when I broke down when doing my mandarin script for my first emcee show. And that time when I broke down telling him how I hate my internship.

Whenever I throw tantrums, he will never get angry but he knows how pampered am I and he knows I’m just being whiny and I’ll be fine after a while.

When I have to study for exams, he would accompany me to Starbucks and sit there for hours without a word of complain.

He would rather miss his soccer games/chill out sessions with his friends and keep me company knowing that our weekends are really precious.

There are thousand of things that he did that are really sweet and the list is inexhaustible.

All in all, I just wanna say I love you Boyfriend and that I really hope we can have many more 6 months. Thank you for tolerating my incessant whines and me behaving like a spoilt brat. Thank you for always being so understanding. Thank you for making me feel important and loved.

I love you and Happy 6 months.

XOXO

Few days later, it will be our 6 months together! Time flies huh. I could still vividly remember the very first time we met at Zouk. I was standing outside wine bar alone and just nice, Jucifer spotted me and she asked me to join her and her friends for a drink. And my lovely boyfriend was one of her friends lor! Haha. Well, that’s how we met..

Happy that I’ve no school tomorrow! Finally I’m able to sleep late and watch dramas till late without any qualms of having to wake up early the next day. What a chore huh to have early classes. Boy. Guess am gonna do some shopping myself tomorrow and arrange for a waxing session.

School’s been really busy. Now that I’m specializing in Fund Management, all the calculations are really driving me crazy man..

Cant wait for the weekend to come! Boyfriend and I are gonna have dinner at Serenity Bar and Restaurant @ Vivo. We went there the week before and I have to say, the place really has a nice ambience and the food’s really good! Serenity serves Spanish cuisine and we had pork knuckles set accompanied with Erdinger Beer. So this week, we are gonna try their Paella! Im not sure how to describe what’s that, but its something like the Spanish Rice at Marche! Simply cant wait!

I really look forward to every weekends! Its the only two days me and Baby can be together. Though it’s the same ol’ routine every weekend, but I’m really happy and we are never tired of it. (ok, maybe boyfriend is tired of always having to wait for me at Zara for hours.. er.. *shrugs*) But never mind about that la huh, it’s the Boyfriend’s duty to accompany his girlfriend to shop la!

Anyway some random photos~

My boyfriend so thick skinned huh! His photo taking skills is even better than me man. He took all those with my iPhone!

Hehe, alas..

Me!!

Ahh. Pardon me man. I’m really bored now. And I wonder what’s everyone doing now on a Thursday night?

Have got work tomorrow and will be starting my job as an ambassador at Supperclub tomorrow. Will be working with Jojo! Thank god i’m not working alone man. Hope Kris and Yvonne can join me next week!

Signing off now! Gonna turn in soon so nights people!

XOXO

]]> http://missceline.wordpress.com/2010/05/21/542/feed/ 0 missceline IMG_0276-tileed IMG_0295-tileed http://missceline.wordpress.com/2010/05/16/538/ http://missceline.wordpress.com/2010/05/16/538/#comments Sat, 15 May 2010 21:38:39 +0000 missceline http://missceline.wordpress.com/?p=538 ]]> Today, Boyfriend said he had something to tell me. Given his nature, I thought that it would be just some random lame stuff. He looked at me intently, and said, “I’m gonna book my place in Uni next month.”

And all I replied was, “Oh, really? Alright then.”

What more could I say? Or rather, does my words even change anything?

Months back, when boyfriend first told me of his idea of going overseas to study, I got really emotional. And that was the time he got enlisted into army. I couldnt get over the fact that on top of having lesser time with him after he went to army, he will be going overseas to study once he ORD.

This is just so heartbreaking.

The boyfriend is sound asleep now. And here am I, blogging. To be honest, maybe I have acted all nonchalant just now. But deep down, I really couldn’t deny that I’m really affected by his words. And I swear, upon his words, I really wanted to burst out crying. But I held back my tears and tried hard to divert the whole subject and just forget about the whole thing.

And now, here I am. Blogging. Talking to a imaginary cyber space, or rather, just ranting.

I know its unreasonable and so selfish of me if I were to ask Boyfriend to stay in Sg. But the problem is, Sg doesn’t have the course he wants and his results aren’t good enough to qualify for local university. Yes, there is another option. SIM. But this would never be one of his choices. And if I were to choose, I too, would rather go overseas to study rather than to study SIM. No offense to those whom are studying in SIM now. I’m not saying SIM is not good or whatsoever. Just felt that SIM ain’t that recognized as what it seem to be.

Yes, so tell me, who will forsake one’s future just for his girlfriend/boyfriend? No one. Practically no one. Because if I were in his shoes, I most probably would have done the same thing as well.

We have been together for 5 months, coming 6. And our everyday was really a happy one. Friends are all telling me that we are really compatible and that they have never seen me so happy before. But then, 5 months may be short. But it seems that we have gone through much more than what couples may have gone through. And I always felt that we have been together for so long.

Just not long ago, I’ve finally managed to get used to the Boyfriend being in army. I re-contracted my contract at True Yoga and try to occupy myself as much as possible during weekdays. I hang out at St.games more than usual.

Then now comes the news that he’s really going to Australia. Though it may be a year from now, but it saddens me. All because I know I’m not someone who’s cut out for long distance relationship and I wonder what spells for us one year from now.

Yes, anything might change during this course of time from now till then. Who knows? Maybe Boyfriend might change his decision. Oh well, thats what everyone’s telling me. That’s what Boyfriend told me when I cried sometime back when we talked about this issue and he said he will choose to stay in Sg with me and not go Aus. But I know, he’s just trying to talk me out of the subject and calm me down…..

Few months passed. And I stopped thinking about that issue. But Heaven has to be so cruel to force me to face this issue again.

Sigh.

It’s almost 6. I guess I should try to sleep now. Nights then.

I guess.. that’s just US.