Official Geek
Oh hello guys. I’m back. Time check, 5.26am. I just finished studying 4 chaps of my Fund Accounting! Oh boy, I’m drained. 3 more subjects to go within one week. And 5 consecutive papers in the following week! Beat that man.
This 3 week study break passed so much faster than I expected. Im already into the 2nd, coming to 3rd week. And which means, just officially 9 more days to exams! I’m really really concerned about this exam as this is my only chance to pull up my GPA. Although this is only my first semester and I still have one more to go before I graduate, the CM claimed that if you were to apply for Uni next year, you would be using the current semester results instead of the latter one. So I’m really trying my best to score and get as much A’s.
There were times when I really feel like giving up. For all you know, my GPA is neither here nor there. Really effed up. 3.328.
Its like, even if I can get A’s for both of this year’s semester, my GPA will only be pulled up to maximum 3.5. And where can 3.5 get me to?
NOWHERE.
Yup, you heard me correctly. Maybe, just maybe, it might gain me a chance to go to the interview at SMU. If I’m not wrong, SMU’s cut off point is 3.6-3.7. But I think their standards are increasing and it makes it all the more difficult to be qualified (to just get interviewed). And ya, even if I managed to go to the interview, I MIGHT NOT pass the interview! SMU’s known for their stringent criteria for their interview when judges pose questions and everyone have to fight to answer. And what, I’ll be competing with people from JC like Hua Chong/Raffles etc?! Sigh.
Sometimes, I really regretted not going to JC. I believed I would have fare good enough to get into the local Uni. And I strongly believe, it’s not that hard compared to Polytechnic.
Not saying that Polytechnic is hard. It’s actually quite slack you know. Its just that one requires alot of discipline and maintaining your results throughout the 3 years. I slacked during Year 1 and got atrocious results. It’s only then I realised that Year 1 has the highest weightage among the 3 years and that is why no matter how hard I work in Year 2, my GPA increment is so insignificant.
So it’s like, whats the point of studying hard when I cant get into local uni and I’m bound to go private uni’s?
To be honest, I feel quite lost. Really lost. Yes, I can go to overseas to study. But I will never because I dont wish to leave my parents all alone in Singapore. Age is catching up with them and I really wish to spend more time with them and not wanting them to worry about me 24/7 when I’m all alone overseas.
And the last thing I want to do is to go into a private uni. Really. No offense, but it’s just.. my warped perception against them.
Or maybe worse come to worse, I’ll just pick whichever course in NUS/NTU my grade takes me? Then again, it makes no sense. Sigh. See, at a point of no return. If only I studied harder in Year 1 then I wouldnt be at this juncture.
Oh well.. All I know is that I should just try my best. Even if I fail,at least I know Ive tried.
Guess I shall head to bed. It’s almost 6am! Have to get up in 6 hours to finish my subject before I can head out to meet my Boy!
Nights!
